Just a place where I can put my mind at ease

Friendships can be found the most unlikely places

Sorry, but this is just too cute not to post!

Me in the hospital?

Breaking inside - Shinedown

I have been seriously threatened three times in my life. All three times it was said that I was gonna be put in the hospital with a disfigured face.

The first time was by an unknown girl and her gang when I was 13 years old. She was mouthy, but the only physical contact she made was when she grabbed my face and squeezed. I had been rude with her because she was picking on my friend.
I was mentally destroyed after this incident. I was scared for weeks and exhausted from thinking too much.

The second time was this summer before I turned 22.
The perpetrator in this case was a drunk guy I was familiar with from work. He was also very descriptive when he told me all the things we would do to my face. I had been trying to calmly get back my jacket that he had taken from me and was currently wearing.
One thing I remember hearing him say quite vividly was that I was gonna have to swallow my teeth. The only physical contact he made was grabbing my jacket and refusing to let go. He pulled me close and held me and spat out threat after threat.
I was a little shaken by that incident. I was mostly angry, but it lasted for 3 or 4 days.

The third time was yesterday.
This time I was threatened by someone I know very well. This person only said that another comment from me would cost me serious time in the orthopedic part of the hospital. So I said "yeah right"
The only physical contact this person made was when they grabbed my face and shook my head. I got up and started yelling at them. This person then grabbed my face again and slapped me several times with a free hand.
I feel nothing. No fear, no anger, no sadness.

So I don't understand, shouldn't it have been the other way around? Shouldn't it hurt me more that someone I know well would put their hands on me than a complete stranger?
I am a little angry, but mainly because I can't seem to get into a real fight.
Yeah I know that sounds beyond stupid, but it annoys me that the three incidents with serious threats were made by complete pussies.
Maybe that is what pisses me off the most? That they were all big-mouthed pussies with no balls to back up their words?
I figure if you're gonna say something like that, be prepared to back that shit up. If not, keep your ugly mouth SHUT!

I'm gonna be a WHAT!?

Nothing precious at all - Stereophonics

Today was my second day of school.
Today was also the first time I realized what I had chosen as my career in life. I am actually gonna be a teacher. Never in my wildest dreams would I have expected to chose this path.

One of my english teacher spoke of the things we would encounter as teachers, and I actually got emotional. I think that's a great sign. She was very passionate about being a teacher, and I do hope I have the same amount of passion and joy in my work as she seems to have.

We are quite a few people in my class, and I have returned to my old ways when put in a school environment. I think it'll all work out nicely as soon as I learn to relax and not take myself too seriously. I must admit I'm not too keen on getting as many friends as possible, and this first week is all about being drunk and meeting new people.
Now don't get me wrong, I do enjoy getting my dumb ass drunk, but I don't think that's the best way for ME personally to make friends. I understand that drinking makes people more social, but I just don't see myself gaining too much on it.
I also have zero money, and we all know that getting drunk isn't free. So no go for me.

I got turned down for a job today. That is the first time I've ever been turned down after going to an interview. I suppose the painkillers I was on were a bit stronger than I thought. I seriously can't think of any other reason for being turned down. I'm a great worker and I have a great CV.
I do have my doubts as to what my former boss might have said about me, but I could never imagine that he would say anything negative out of spite.
Would he?

Oh well, just have to keep looking. Again.

I really hate this part...

The Pretty Reckless - Miss Nothing

I'm sorry, but I absolutely LOVE this song!

Her voice is not what I'd expected it would be at all, and I really like it!

Daniel Bryan!!


Ok, it may be my first day of school, but I have to check up on my wrestling news, and it looks like Daniel Bryan was back on RAW last night!!! (Was he on Summerslam as well? Does this mean I have to check it out even if I decided I wouldn't??)

I'm probably the slowest person in the world to catch up on wrestling news, but that makes me that much happier when I see stuff like this happen!!
I knew he'd be back, but I thought they'd wait a bit longer before they brought him back. It fits nicely into the storyline, but why eliminate Darren Young? Ooooh, the excitement:p

*Does a happy dance*


For blue skies - Strays don't sleep

Spotify has made my life so much easier when it comes to discovering new music.
Since I don't really like downloading music I've always had a hard time looking for new music without being a douche about it.
I figured I could download a song and if I liked the essence of it I would buy the album to support the people behind the music, but it has always been a hassle.

Since my iPod got stolen and I lost 8500 songs I didn't have saved anywhere I'm terrified of using my new iPod. I put 200 songs on it when I got it, and I haven't added anything else since. I'm just so scared that I'll lose it again, and it hurts less knowing I only lose 200 songs. I know, crappy attitude, I should just do serious backups of all my songs, but fuck that, I don't wanna lose everything again!
With Spotify it's all registered on my account, and I can't really lose it:p

I'm the exact opposite of my father when it comes to music, I know there will always be good music out there just waiting for me to discover it. Dad thinks all good music ended in '67 or something with few exceptions.
I'm always looking.
And I can't even describe the feeling I get when I find something new, I get completely euphoric about it.

With Spotify this has been a dance in the park for me. I can look up songs and artists at a whim, and I've found sooo much that I had never heard about.
Yes, I do pay the monthly fee so that I don't have to listen to the comercials, but it's nothing compared to how much I use it! It's playing at least 12hrs every day, and it's always being updated.

I just love, love LOOOOOOOVE my Spotify!!!!!

Lita the animal lover

Amy Dumas (Lita) is my all time favorite female wrestler.
I see her as an inspiration like no one has been after her.
She had her own sense of self, and I admired what she did for female wrestling in the WWE.

I found this beautiful video of her in the animal shelter on youtube, and I figured it showed a side of her that not too many people have seen.This was during her injury in 2002/2003.

Amy is currently busy with her band "The Luchagors" and she seems fairly happy. I doubt she will ever return to wrestling, but she is more than welcome if she decides to do so. I would love to see her back in the ring, but only time will tell.


My dear GHAWD how it hurts!!

I have had this pain (in what I thought was my tooth) for over two weeks now. Turns out it wasn't my tooth. Yes, I had to face my crippling fear of dentists just in order to be told that my teeth were fine.
So I figured it had to be my ear. By now it was hurting a whole lot more.
Went to the doctor with half my face/jaw in pain only to hear him say that, nope, he couldn't really see any reason for the pain.
He was kind enough to prescribe me some painkillers, but they honestly don't work half as well as I'd wish they did.
He also gave me some sort of medicine. I checked what it was for...
STDs... Wow, ok. If my pain doesn't end by monday I have to go back in to check it out.

Problem: I start school this tuesday. If this pain isn't gone by monday I'll scream my head off!
I can't even describe it, it's like there is something expanding inside my teeth and jawline. The pain is throbbing, it's seriously some of the worst shit I've ever been through!


Love the way you lie

Ok, siden jeg ikke har noen musikkanaler og i grunnen ser på TV ganske sjelden pleier det å ta litt tid før jeg ser nye musikkvideoer.

Når jeg sjekker dem ut må det enten være en sang jeg liker eller en annen spesifikk grunn. Tidligere brukte jeg Yahoo Music Videoes, men nå har de blitt mye mer begrenset, og det er vanvittig plagsomt.

Uansett (man har alltid tid til små digresjoner, hva?:)) har jeg sjekket ut "Love the way you lie" av Rihanna og Eminem. Grunnen til dette var fordi det visstnok var folk som hadde reagert på hvordan et voldelig forhold hadde blitt fremvist i videoen.
Det jeg har å si etter å ha sett den er dette:

Fy faen. All heder og ære til Megan Fox og Dominic Monaghan. Det er intenst, det er dramatisk og hjerteskjærende vakkert på 4 korte minutter.
De virker helt fortapt i hverandre og kjærligheten blir vist side om side med de vanskelige stundene. Det er troverdig og godt gjennomført.
Det visuelle i videoen med flammene er "breathtaking", det er rett og slett utrolig vakkert å se på.

Siden jeg personlig ikke har opplevd noe liknende i egne forhold er det kanskje lett å si, men man gjør jo opp et eget bilde av voldelige forhold.

Jeg syns måten videoen ble gjennomført på husker å vise at disse forholdene er intense og uforståelige for noen som står på utsiden og ser inn.

Videoen viser også at kjærligheten ikke alltid er seirende.

Jeg syntes rett og slett at videoen var såpass godt gjennomført (til tross for Rihannas grimaser og den fantastisk grelle hårsveisen) at jeg dro bloggen min ut av en dvale.

Og det sier vel litt;)